heart in the clouds

January 22, 2013

Not Regret but...

Ok so I don't typically write touchy feely blog posts, as most of them have really only been about Blake...but tonight I felt the need.

When driving home today, after I picked up little B from daycare and he snuggled with me right then and there, I had a moment of sadness. Sadness that I am taking B away from his mommy and daddy when the new baby comes. Sadness that he won't get ALL of my attention. And it REALLY hit me when I was rocking him to sleep tonight (yes we still do that...its my only special routine that I get to have my me & Blake time) and realized that I wasn't going to be able to rock him to sleep every night when Mr. Brody comes.

I hear several things from people... first is usually a sigh like "wow...how are you going to do that with two!?"... then I usually hear "but they will be the best of friends". And while I like to think that is the case, I just hope I'm not doing any damage to them early on. A fellow blogger had some of the same feelings and hers are a little bit older now, but she felt the exact same way but has now realized that she's given her son a best friend. I hope and want to think that will be the case with Blake and Brody, but you just don't know :)

Just wanted to ramble a little to get it off my chest... don't get me wrong, I could have NEVER imagined not bringing little Brody into this world and he's NOT even here yet! But at the same time, I hope that Blake will get all of the attention he needs (sadly I think it won't be enough at times of course!).

On a happy note... even though I'm pretty sure Blake really has NO idea what is in my belly right now....but this morning when I was getting ready he of course pulled up on my legs and was standing right under me. Its kind of funny now though, because my belly is getting so big he can't just look up at me, he has to lean back and then look up HA! Anywho... I patted my belly and was telling him his baby brother was in there... and that his name was going to be Brody and that Blake was going to be a BIG BROTHER! He had the BIGGEST smile at me and reached up and touched my belly. While I'm pretty sure he has NO clue what I was talking about, it melted my heart just to see him touch his little brother before he has even arrived. How special that was today....

Thanks for listening :)

Till next time

January 11, 2013

Month 9 - 3/4 of a Year!


My how you just continue to make our hearts grow :) Typically I wouldn't write this blog until next month, but I'm trying this new "proactive" thing considering I will need to use it more once your little brother comes along :)

This month was FULL of fun! Not only did you have 3 WHOLE Christmas celebrations and sit on Santa's lap 4 times, you were spoiled with fun and gifts from everyone who loves you! On Christmas morning your daddy and I made sure to make it a special one so we got a video camera...and although you really had NO clue what was going on, we look forward to seeing the magic of Christmas in your eyes on that thing every year! Santa brought you a Sing-a-long Train to help you learn to walk and a four-wheeler! I think your dad put in a good word about the four wheeler HA! You got some new bath toys that you ALWAYS suck on when your in the tub and the movie Nemo and a little Nemo stuffy. Your eyes just light UP and you have this HUGE smile on your face when you see him! SO cute :)




I think you're really getting sick of the baby food these days, which puts your mom "the horrible chef" to test now with what to feed you! You love anything finger food. You've tried just about everything these days and I'm pretty sure you hate those baby food green beans we've been trying to get you to eat, so we've had to stick with the sweet potatoes and mixed veggies for your vegetables. You LOVE fruit and anything sweet (sorry...I think you got that from me!) Speaking of...here are 2 funny pictures of you trying your very first brownie that your daddy made. That's right, Daddy CAN bake :) I just love your face after we put it in your mouth, you can tell it was heaven and you enjoyed every second of it!

Bite going in...

You are such a growing boy...I'll have to probably update your stats after we go to the doc on Monday (it's Friday morning), but I'm guessing your around a 22-23 pounder :) That's a BIG turkey!

You are SO lucky to have so many wonderful people in your life who just adore you like your aunt Jessica. Although she isn't your aunt by blood...she may as well be as much as she loves you! She took you on your first excursion to the Butterfly Pavilions Holiday Lights extravaganza! You didn't quite know what to think, but when you saw "nemo" you couldn't take your eyes off of him haha! You were glued to the glass of the fish tank! I think we'll have to go back there when it is brighter in the day so you can actually see all the butterflies though. Your aunt Jessica insisted you read her favorite book "There was an old lady...who swallowed a fly, I don't know whyyyy she swallowed that fly" (singing in Jessica's voice). It is so much fun to see you start to interact with the rest of the world, whether it be you discovering a new look, sense, taste or interacting with people.


You have STILL not said "mama" but continue to say "dada" to everything! Lots of "oohs and ahhs" but no real words just yet! You know who Wendy is and who dada is and the second I walk in the door you are running to me which MAKES my day :) You want to hold your "baba" on your own now and are perfecting the one hander hold HA! You love crawling all down the hall way and going to the landing at the bottom of the stairs and you're learning to master the stairs but coming back down is a little scary! You are fascinated with the bathroom and the toilet paper hehe! You LOVE your new daycare, which is SUCH a relief considering it was just as hard to drop you off at a second place as it was the first!

We love you so much and never knew a love and joy like this!

~Mmmmmmamma and Dadda!